Last time you heard from me I was expecting my first child. Now, four months into motherhood, I am just about getting into the swing of things. I’ve been very lucky – my girl has slept through the night since 8 weeks old and I have a great support network – and yet it’s still only now I feel even remotely capable or interested into returning into the blogging world.
Now I have got nappy changes and feeds under my belt, and maternity leave is still in full swing, the blog seems so refreshing. I am not going to become a “mummy blogger” (despite using the hashtag on social media – guilty as charged!) but I am not going to shy away from the fact motherhood is now another part of my life. To put it as the wonderful Mother Pukka would say, “I am an aspiring lifestyle and beauty blogger who just happens to be a mother”.
So what is it like? It’s wonderful, scary, rewarding, tiring, and dare I say it, a little boring at times. Each day is repetition. Wonderful repetition but still, there isn’t much to distinguish each weekday from the next. My husband is still working full time of course whilst I man the ship at home. We’ve also moved away from the city centre so I do feel a bit out in the sticks. Spontaneous Primark and Boots hauls are almost completely out of the question, so I mainly pass my days doing housework whilst catching up on YouTube. The epitome of the anachronistic 50s housewife? I’ll let you decide.
This said, I am kind of dreading going back to work and there is still a grey cloud over whether I actually will. I was always going to take a few years out if we were lucky enough to have a second child. The rising cost of childcare and the commute means this day may come sooner than we first thought. I don’t love my job and I certainly don’t want to do it just to pay for childcare – it’s a bit of an oxymoron. We are fortunate to be in a position where my husband could support the whole household on his wages alone, but this would be life-altering. But can you expect anything else when welcoming a child into this world?
But that’s for a few months time and this post has certainly gone off on an unexpected tangent…
It is so wonderful to be back.
Make-up and clothes were always a distraction from the real world, but they have become even more so now. They are the only link between my former life and my new one. I am definitely not complaining about being a mother – I love it and I love my daughter – but with it, I have let go of my former identity and relative freedom.
No one really believes these are the most important things in life but I think for the majority of people who are in this mad blogging community it is a wonderful escape. I hope you will find some happiness reading my posts as I do planning and writing them.
I’m going to ease myself back in with some simple and traditional product reviews and see where things take me. There is no schedule as my new boss wears a nappy. It will be as and when. But that’s the best I can do for now.
I bloody can’t wait!